2013年1月6日日曜日

金菊のレリーフ

ケンちゃんの家にもっていくために、モリエールに寄った。クッキーはだめだ。ケーキは留守だったときに困る。フルーツケーキのローフは切るのが面倒だしあそこは親の家と子供の家があるからわけにくい。結局、一切れずつのパウンドケーキのような種類が年賀の箱にはいったセットを購入した。シュークリームがレジの手前に山のように積んであった。食べたいと思った。お母さんにあげようか。ネズミかなにか、動物が入って食い散らかしたら嫌だしな。1つ買ってお母さんと分けよう。
 ケンちゃんの家に挨拶を済まして、実家に戻る。母に供える。半分こしような、といった母は、私はええわ、あんた食べな、といった。いいやん、もっと欲しかったいくつでも買ってきたらええんやし、と僕は言った。半分に割って母と一緒に食べた。母はあーおいしいなぁ、クレモナのもおいしかったけど、やっぱりモリエールのも美味しいなといって、二人で美味しい美味しいといってひとしきり食べた。それから母は、もっと食べたいけどおなかが悪なるとあかんからやめとこかな、そやけど食べたいな、でもやめといたほうがええな...といっていた。ええやん、いっくらでもこうてきたるで、すきなだけたべたらええやん、と僕はいった。僕は何にもしてあげられなかった。母にいい暮らしをさせてあげられなかった。こんな寒い家で1月の寒いときに一人で暮らさせていた。母の姿が消えていった。金の菊のレリーフが急に浮かび上がってきた。仏壇を凝視していたのだった。

2012年12月4日火曜日

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Jovan Belcher Girlfriend Fight

An argument after a Trey Songz concert may be what lead Kansas City Chiefs player Jovan Belcher to commit suicide at the team’s training facility on Dec. 1, approximately an hour after shooting his girlfriend Kasandra Perkins dead.

Jovan Belcher, 25, died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound near Arrowhead Stadium on Dec. 1. His death occurred approximately an hour after he shot and killed girlfriend Kasandra Perkins, 22. According to a new report, the couple argued after Kasandra returned home late, following a Trey Songz concert.
“Jovan and Kasandra were frequently seen arguing over the course of their relationship,” a friend told the Kansas City Star.  However, she had no reason to believe their fights had ever become violent.
On Friday night, Nov. 30, the friend added, “Jovan confronted Kasandra when she came home after watching R&B star Trey Songz perform in Kansas City.”
Unfortunately, details of their argument may never see the light of day.
“Jovan was a happy, proud father, with pictures of his baby on his Facebook page,” Jovan’s agentJoe Linta told SI.com’s Peter King on Saturday Dec. 1. “This is shocking. Something went crazy wrong, and we’ll probably never know what it is.”

Jovan Belcher Murder-Suicide: Kansas City Police Details

The incident took place after a related, earlier off-site shooting, a Kansas City police spokeswoman Darin Snapp told NFL.com.
“About (7:50 a.m), we got a call to a residence, in regards to a shooting, on the 5400 block of Crysler Ave,” Darin said. “We arrived and the lady there informed us that her daughter had been shot by her on-again, off-again boyfriend. The young woman was taken to a local hospital, where she died a short time later.”
“At about 8:10 a.m., we received a call to the Arrowhead practice facility in regards to a black male armed with a gun in the parking lot, and he matched the description of the shooting suspect,” Darin continued. “Officers arrived, saw a black man with a gun to his head, and some Chiefs employees. As the officer got out of his car, he heard a gunshot. It appeared the individual shot himself. He was transported to a local hospital, where he was pronounced dead.”
“We are cooperating with authorities in their investigation,” a team statement said, confirming the incident.

More on Jovan & His Girlfriend, Kasandra

Jovan and girlfriend Kasandra Perkins had a baby less than three months ago, on Sept 11.
Jovan grew up on Long Island, New York and played for the Maine Black Bears in college, where he was named first team All American in the Football Championship Subdivision. Jovan agreed to a free agent contract with the Kansas City Chiefs in 2009 after not getting drafted. In 2011, he became a starting linebacker for the team.

Tweets on the KC Chiefs’ Linebacker’s Murder-Suicide

@KCStar tweeted, “Police: #Chiefs player, 25, was met by coaches in the parking lot of the practice facility and then took his own life.”
“Chief LB Jovian Belcher was involved in a shooting involving at least one other person outside the team’s facility today, source said…,” Jason La Confora added on Twitter.
The Chiefs are scheduled to play against the Carolina Panthers today, Dec. 2.

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Jovan Belcher Accused Girlfriend Of Cheating With Trey Songz — Report

Mon, December 3, 2012 9:40am EST by 1 Comment
Jovan Belcher Kasandra Perkins Shooting

According to Kasandra Perkins’ friend, Jovan Belcher killed Kasi after accusing her of having an affair with Trey Songz upon her return from his concert in Kansas City on Nov. 30. How sad.

Kansas City Chiefs player Jovan Belcher murdered his 22-year-old girlfriendKasandra Perkins after reportedly assuming she was having an affair with R&B singer Trey Songz. After shooting the mother of his child dead, Jovan drove to Arrowhead stadium and killed himself in front of his coach and general manager in Kansas City on Dec. 1.
“[Kasandra] and her girlfriends went to see Trey Songz and Miguel at Midland [theatre]. It was one of her first nights out since having the baby,” a friend of Kasandra’s tells MediaTakeOut. According to the source, it was Jovan’s jealous delusions that lead to both of their deaths, even though Kasandra never met Trey Songz.
“After the concert [the girls] went to the afterparty. She didn’t do anything wrong, she wasn’t with any guys, and was nowhere near Trey,” the friend adds. Jovan was reportedly so upset that Kasandra didn’t come home immediately.
“[Kasandra] left after getting a text from Jovan. And that’s the last we saw her.”
According to reports, Kasandra returned home and after Jovan accused her of having a relationship with Trey Songz, he shot and killed her.

Jovan Belcher Murder-Suicide: Kansas City Police Details

The incident took place after a related, earlier off-site shooting, a Kansas City police spokeswoman Darin Snapp told NFL.com.
“About (7:50 a.m), we got a call to a residence, in regards to a shooting, on the 5400 block of Crysler Ave,” Darin said. “We arrived and the lady there informed us that her daughter had been shot by her on-again, off-again boyfriend. The young woman was taken to a local hospital, where she died a short time later.”
“At about 8:10 a.m., we received a call to the Arrowhead practice facility in regards to a black male armed with a gun in the parking lot, and he matched the description of the shooting suspect,” Darin continued. “Officers arrived, saw a black man with a gun to his head, and some Chiefs employees. As the officer got out of his car, he heard a gunshot. It appeared the individual shot himself. He was transported to a local hospital, where he was pronounced dead.”
“We are cooperating with authorities in their investigation,” a team statement said, confirming the incident.

More on Jovan & His Girlfriend, Kasandra

Jovan and girlfriend Kasandra Perkins had a baby less than three months ago, on Sept 11.
Jovan grew up on Long Island, New York and played for the Maine Black Bears in college, where he was named first team All American in the Football Championship Subdivision. Jovan agreed to a free agent contract with the Kansas City Chiefs in 2009 after not getting drafted. In 2011, he became a starting linebacker for the team.
What do YOU think, HollywoodLifers? Could Trey Songz be the root of this tragedy?


入れ替わり

僕は入れ替わったマネキンを抱いている。

2012年7月23日月曜日

ふたつの瞳がプレーを凝視しているが、心はそこにないのがわかる。表情は苦痛に歪んでいる。視線はじっとプレーのある虚空を見つめているだけだ。落とした。落とした。敵の歓声。嬌声。ふたつのチームが何かに魅入られたように大逆転へと進行していく。その不可逆的な力のひとつの歯車となってしまっただけなのだ。自分のプレーがきっかけとなった逆転への相手方のドライブを眼にしながらコールドウェルの頭には虚空に浮かぶボールの映像、それが手にぶつかる感触、いつもと異なる生き物のような不思議な動きをしているという気がついたときには自分の知らない手に入っていた視覚が繰り返し浮かぶばかりだった。

2012年7月22日日曜日

母との再会

僕はアパートの部屋に戻ってきた。旅行から帰ってきたように思える。自分で先に部屋に入っていた。そこは小さい4部屋からなるアパートで、4つの部屋がつながっていた。ドアから入った部屋の右側につながる部屋にベッドがある。ベッドは金属のパイプが目という文字を横にしたようになっていてどうも母の病室にあったもののようだ。僕は12時について待っていた。母は仕事帰り!で、休憩の時間に家に少しだけ帰ってくるのだ。僕はイギリスからかどこからか、帰ってきた状態だ。部屋は深緑か灰緑のペンキがとろけるように塗ってあるが色は落ち着いている。パリのアパルトマンのような縦長の細い建物の5階か何かだ。母は帰ってきて僕のことを気づかってくれる。僕は母と二日しかあえないからだ。なぜなら夢の中では多分僕の方が二日後に死ぬことになっているからだ。

2012年7月16日月曜日

ウクレレ

母と津でうどんを食べていたことを思い出した。子供がウクレレを鳴らしたからだ。そのウクレレは2010年の10月にクリスマスのプレゼントに母が二人に買ってくれたものだった。